adding magic to my everyday

 I had a conversation with my brother about his bedroom recently. He'd moved in with our dad three years prior and the room looked exactly the same as it did beforehand, barring his excessive collection of footwear and empty Dr Pepper cans. The floral bedding had been given to him by our nan, the walls were bare aside from a few wonky canvases he'd hung on nails already there and the bed was lumpy and uncomfortable. He had little to no storage and his bottom drawer contained loads of our dad's shit. I asked him why his bedroom was the same - he said he'd never thought about it. Sure, the bed was horribly uncomfortable and he had nowhere to store his games. Sure, the decor wasn't to his taste. But what could he do about it?

Change it!!!

I almost shook him in frustration (but I didn't. I am restrained and dignified.) 

I've been thinking a lot about active decision-making recently. I've been just coasting for a while, very passive in terms of my day-to-day life. I've haven't been unhappy but I haven't been particularly in love with life either. I realised I hadn't done anything new or interesting in a while. The same way my brother has subconsciously accepted his bedroom the way it is, I'd accepted my monotone lifestyle. And in the same way I told my brother he'd be able to transform his bedroom with £50 (mattress topper, new duvet, perhaps painting the wall behind his bed), I challenged myself to add some more sparkle to my everyday. 

I started in the smallest and most logical ways: I watched a season of Drag Race I hadn't already seen 18 times. (Season 5 for those curious.) I spent 90p on a summery shower gel because pineapple always makes me think of the sun. I created a new Sims 4 save and set myself a 'highest potential' challenge. I refreshed my skincare collection with bits I already had. S and I made a pact to take more photos together. I began looking for pottery and pole dancing classes. 

Once I started it began to snowball, effortless.

I added 100+ songs to a playlist for us to listen to throughout the day instead of existing in silence. I created a rotation of snacks and meals for our shopping lists because we've fallen into habitual eating and we wanna snap out. S hasn't been sleeping well so we've created a routine of reading chapters of Game of Thrones aloud to one another each night before bed. I finally allowed myself to buy Cosy Grove and I've spent an hour each day tending to my poor ghosty bears and it's genuinely so lovely??? I rejoined Bee's wonderful Patreon community after a few months away in a bid to restoke my passions (and support a wonderful creative) and felt the fires of creativity begin to stir inside of me.

These changes have taken place over the last few weeks or so and I'm already basking in the benefits. I feel reinvigorated, refreshed. Content. Such small things make a huge difference. Now I just need to learn to implement them regularly instead of allowing myself to stagnate ~

One thing at a time, though, eh?